RockMyCore

Yes,I've been going through a rather bad personal patch as of late.It's pretty bad this time.And it's affecting alot of people.My parents are worried,thanks to some over-exaggerated teacher who called them.My fish are all worried too,I don't spend time looking at them as I used to.Well,I got great friends by my side,forever asking me that irritating question "You ok not??"
I just tend to shut myself off from the rest of the world.It isn't good,but it's that's just the way I am.Plus the combo of stuffing everything deep inside me for years doesn't really help either.
So,people keep asking me what the hell is wrong,well,it's just the accumulated sorrows accumulated over a period of approximately 11 years till now,which can't be accumulated any more cause I can't "tahan" anymore,so yeah,that's my rough patch.
Got it? No more asking okay.
I know the way I handle things isn't really that good on the social line,but it's the only way I know how.I just want to be alone sometimes,just be with myself,and just be away from other humans for awhile.And it's sad that people don't understand sometimes.They actually think that you have changed permanently and that you don't care about them anymore.It can be depressing to watch it all unfold.
And I would greatly appreciate it that whatever I type here will stay here.If you read it,keep it to yourself yeah? Merci.
Thanks ah,Mdm Choo,for calling my mum and causing a riot at home!

Barbecue with the Shin family church yesterday.It was so great to meet up with people again.And meet new ones.And get to know those you know and but never really talked to.Finally had the chance to talk to Fiona after so long.Finally managed to laugh loudly with her again.I miss that.Fiona also now no more single! TskTsk! Auntie Pauline sooo funny! HAHA! Can laugh all day long! Her extension very cute you know.I had a great time there.

Anyways,



Relatives didn't invite this year,so went to my classmate Mythu's place with some of the class.
And boy did I gorge.It's been so long since I tasted home cooked Singaporean indian food.I didn't give a damn about the rest,and I ate to my heart's content.So,now I'm stuffed.
If I were still in India,along with the week whole holiday,I would be bursting fire crackers and bombs and sending rockets into the air with my heart.Mind you,they don't really care about pollution back then and neither did I.Diwali was the time when you breathe in nothing but smoke,and I'm serious! It was that GOOD!.Like India wasn't that polluted enough,we still had to make it worse! But it was fun! And an experience most people in Singapore will never get to enjoy.Come on! All we have here are sparklers!
And gosh,do I miss those sweets back there too! I won't tell you more,I will just let all those pictures do the talking!


These were my all time favourites! This come back to the "things you take for granted" again.For 7 long years I had all the time,eating them like they were Mentos.And now,I am craving for them,craaaving.Those shops at Little India sell them at such extravagant prices,I would rather fly all the way back to India,eat them and come back.Boy,I miss the authenticness of them all.I tried a ladoo here and it sucked,I threw it away and wasted 2 bucks.One day,I will have them again.Just wait.

Okay,I dragged on too far.

So after that went to Bugis to get Dad's birthday present,and it fits! HAHA! Domanchi okaay!
All right,I'm tired.Ate alot,walked alot,and my mental capacity has reached it's limit.
I am going to sleep.It's early,but I'm going to sleep.
Tommorow I shall go to the resevoir early in the morning to just be myself and be with my myself.I need to just calm meself down.

Pics of the day.

I always ask this question.And have been doing so for as long as I can remember.
"Why me?" "WHY?"
That very word can mean so much.And knowing the numerous answers to that very word can also mean so much to a person.
Sometimes,there is a limit to shaking that soda bottle before it explodes.But my soda has exploded,emptied the bottle and the has torpedoed somewhere,never to be found again.
I don't think I will ever be the same again.

Back to reality and doing what I do best,acting like nothing ever happened.

Today was Sharon's wedding.Food was good.
And today was Dad's birthday.
And the usual dilemma of where to eat on special occasions was our usual dilemma.Our usual and no kick eating places,aka Sakae Sushi,Jack's place or Sizzler seriously did not appeal.The food there is okay,but seriously a bit worn off it.Then,the sudden thought of Botak Jones came to mind.
I've always read and heard about the greatness and deliciousness of Botak Jones.So this was the perfect opportunity to try it out.And even better was the comfort that it was nearby home aka in humble Yishun.It was brand new,so even better.
All right,so right in the heartlands in the district of Yishun,with uncles drinking and smoking and aunties gossiping loudly in hokkien,I had one the best Western food in Singapore.Seriously,very good food.I ordered the Chili Dog.And boy,was it good! Half way through and I was already stuffed and panting! And they had this stuffed jalapeneos which were "omg" damn mouth-watering.And for once,mother didn't complain at all about what she ordered,which means,succes!


Happy am I to be so close to Botak Jones.It's so very cheap too! I can take a nice stroll there for a bite or eat there for lunch and go back to school.Just nice,comfortable,friendly staff too! I might want to work there.Haha,seriously good food.

I think that new okto channel is such a bloody waste.So much hype about it,being a new channel,blablabla, when it's just a replacement.I see nothing much but kiddie shows,old anime,and dumb local made shows,I mean,haven't we seen enough of Gurmit Singh? Seriously,it's just a conspiracy.Nothing new,just a new name.I think Okto live is the only thing worth watching,and that's about it.Singapore never changes.TskTsk.

Sad,that laptop is gone and PC is still dead.But grateful to Ebuddy and Dad's laptop.

All it takes,is just a simple song with simple words,like Mighty To Save,to bring you to tears.I feel good sometimes that those tears can flow.I tend however many times to hide whatever I am feeling.Embaressed however,that I teared in school canteen.

Tears,never new.

We sometimes just take things for granted alot.
I have a very very screwed up PC at the moment.Extremely screwed up.A bad reboot which resulted in multiple accounts,no audio,and some bad connection somewhere resulting in no connection to MSN.
Which resulted in me using that old can of a laptop because I honestly,was desperate.
And now,that old can just died on me.It has totally crashed.Old can indeed.
Which resulted in me going back to the PC.But the problems with the PC had to be fixed.So,in my usual impatience I went straight to it,without any basic knowledge.So now,I got a major screwed up,because I have no idea what I've done.So,now,I have completely cut myself away from the cyber world!
I feel like I am so lost without my internet.
Which made me realize how hooked on I am to the net and MSN.Ironic as can be.I feel very very not in peace at all.

I find it very hard to understand why majority of my electronics never tend to function properly,from my phone to my radio to now my laptop and PC which has become the epitome of it all.
This is a perfect opportunity for me to start thinking what,who and which I am taking for granted.
And as I sit here,typing this down on my friend's laptop and drowning in my own sorrow for my lost,I can really see it all now.Wow.

Please pray for me.Another laptop would really really help.It really would!

........and how about a nice LCD TV and PS3??

Will blog properly when my PC is up and running.Whenever that would be..

I woke up this morning to a horrible scene to my underwater world.A ram and 2 shrimp died in my tropical tank.A shrimp jumped out of my guppy tank.My black oranda had ick!And now,when I got home,my precious black oscar fell to the death craze.Its like an epidemic today the 13th of October.Come to think of it,unless I do have a lot of time,its a probability to maybe drop my tanks from 4 to 3.The water changes can be tiring and plus my water bill seems to be just increasing like there's no tomorrow.But,greedy as I am,I can't bear to reduce!





This picture was taken at our class BBQ on Saturday.Will put up more when I get them.
I now got an excruciating headache.Not used to the new timetable.I am still used to waking up at 1pm and sleeping at 5am.

I think its time to tone up....the world is soo materialistic and outwardly don't you think?

There's a difference right?!
HAHA.
I feel very proud of myself for what I have done so far.A milestone completed.Well,that is all I can do.My limits have stopped here.I don't have the necessary software and stuff to continue.
So much more I want to say.But no time.
Back when its all up and running!

I just spent the last three days deleting all those old post starting from the start of this blog through my dreaded phase in that school all the way to post depression,and stopped at the post where I started going to ITE.And that's when life actually became normal.
Plans for a new blog are underway.So I wont really be blogging much these days till its done.
By the way,looks can be so deceiving.

Well,everyone,I am now 18 years old.
I don't seem very excited now do I.
A part of me is thrilled,ecstatic and so freaked and pumped up that I'm 18! But then,another part of me is so sober and solemn about it,that it is kinda worrying me.It's like telling me that now,its not the time to go crazy and do stuff M18,but it's time to grow and be wiser,because now you are a MAN,and also treated and looked as one.So if I do anything wrong,I will be treated like a MAN.Yeah,I'm a man.

Okay,enough over my thoughts,I am 18! Celebrated with not good sleep.Worked on the eve,so my first few minutes of being a man was on the train.The calls and smses didnt stop till 2am,or when I silenced the phone.Didn't know 18 was such a powerful number.
Woke up to the beautiful sound of Amy Winehouse singing Rehab.Trust me,its refreshing to hear that when you wake up on your birthday.So rushed down to meet the brothers,cause I woke up at 11 and we were supposed to meet at 12.We had Seoul Garden! We had so much fun eating,people around really must have thought we were all SIAO.During the window shopping expedition,I fell in love with this coat Zara had.Its knee lengthed and totally not suited for Singapore,but I just love it! But then again it costs 300 over bucks.Also fell in love with Topman's blazer! Beautiful! But also way over my budget.After that had dinner withfamily at Sizzler.
Well,thats it.I am so wasted now.No idea why.Maybe its the you are a man now,act like one! syndrome.

Yeah,I need a blog overhaul.Help Help HELP!!