RockMyCore

Wow.It's been long.I miss my blog.I missed rambling on about total nonsense and my useless life.Okay,that said,I am still sick.Damn,I used to love getting sick you know.No school,sleep,the pampering,the weight lose,the happy pills and so on.But seriously now,it's going to be a whole month.I am kinda getting sick of the whole routine.Especially the waking up every morning and the forever antibiotics swallowing.Actually,it's more of the disruption of everyday life that's just very annoying.
And you give yourself the excuse because you're sick.You wake up, groggish cause you just slept for like 12 hours in a row everyday,you are tired of seeing that red puffy face in the mirror so you leave your home looking disgruntled.I think I have used enough tissues to make a 2 story bungalow and enough pills to classify me addicted and suicidal.
Enough said,I actually went to the doctors on Wednesday.After like 10 plus plus years! Record broken.Sadly.And it is a good thing that I went.
The doc said,that even though I have been able to heal myself for years,this year just isn't my healing year.Yeah,I get it,I'm old!.Anyways,she said that the infection this year is pretty bad and really pretty bad.And it was gonna take strong antibiotics to clear along with a parade of other pills.And she also said I came at the right time cause that serious blocked ear I was having could have been even more serious and actually caused damage.So yay! Thanks Dad for dragging me down to the doctors.I got my very first MC too.(She actually wanted to give me 5 days of it,but being the modest student I am,I only took one (: ) I might have to go back on Monday.My ear is still blocked.Like damn.
So she wanted me to have as much rest as I can get,no stress and no heaty foods.Well,I think I have been sleeping more in total these few days than I have for the last month.I got major tests coming up and I need to do well,as I always do,so stress in inevitible.BUT,I have forgone heaty foods.Or food for that matter.Yeah right,everyone knows I can't say no to food.So,there goes all that Old Chang Kee and comfort food.I decided to take care of what I put in my mouth.Imagine me drinking hot coffee during the day time?! I did that.Serious!

Back to reality,I've spent most of my waking hours at home watching the whole Season 1 of Ugly Betty.Great show shall I add! So,the past few weeks have been great..in a way.I shall let those pictures do alot of talking.


I wasted 30 over bucks on this stupid challenge.Our gross profit was a mere $25.90 and our total spending we could say was atleast 50 bucks for everything.However,atleast we didn't go home empty handed.The whole process of this challenge however has brought alot of us classmates closer.Indeed.Never will I waste my time on shit like this ever.Tsk!


This is Caleb Chua.I am into the habit of calling him korkor because he really does act like one.We met up after like the whole year yesterday.It was great catching up with him again.Had a great time and a very long talk.Had japanese food too.I love that new Japanese food court at the new Northpoint.The food there isn't that expensive either.And their pizzas are quite good too.Yeah,I ate.No choice.He forced me to.

Oh Mon Dieu


A hectic week this has been.Hectic indeed.
It's been hectic for weeks actually.
So hectic that I have totally forgotten to care about yours truly.
Whats worse,I am looking worse than I thought I did.
Alot of time by my own these nights have really showed me the affects of not properly grooming onself.
Let's talk about the obvious shall we.
First,I rebonded my hair in the early parts of last month.Looked great for the first few days.Now however,as usual as most humans who are never content with themselves,I tend to fuss so much.Now here's what the nice lady at the saloon (who looked like Cassandra See) did to my hair.A full on rebond to the fringe and medium rebond on the rest of my head.
Not that I am complaining,in denial,but how can the rebonds wear off so fast?!
My head already grows like an uneven out of control weed pasture.The medium rebond totally wore off! Or actually had no effect at all! The hair at the back of my head is so bloody curly now.My fringe is straight but curls for like 5 cm from the root.Damn! Plus the sides of my fringe has totally worn off.
So,a proper explanation of what my hair looks like now is...a cauliflower with wheatgrass in the front with devil horns.
Plus that blue extension I put on at the same time is now turning PINK!
See what I mean!


Damn!
And thanks to that fringe I never had,my forehead is now plagued by whiteheads and pimples! Plus with all the carelessness,those pimples have migrated to my chin and cheeks.Bad!
Yeah,it's been a long time since I actually washed my face up real good complete with scrubs and facials and masks.Yes,I do those.And I'm not ashamed to say it!
However my path down the weight loss wagon is well,abit of a success.My pants all damn loose.So that's one good thing.

Went to accompany Leonard to CMPB a few days back.On the way back we got on this cool SBS Transit bus.I may be very slow and old,but the bus was fashioned all for the F1 race.Everything was different.And they even had an LCD tv inside too!But then again,such a nice bus in such an uloo location for what?! Wasteful.
Sorry for the blurry pictures.Had this very fucktard driver.


I am back to work to the faithful GoodWood Park.Damn tiring.But I would rather work there than anywhere else at the moment.Especially with JY,Leonard and Ali.And the food is getting better too!
When one has needs and wants,a job is perfect,no matter how tiring.I finshed work yesterday only at 230am! Which is like 3 and a half more hours of pay! Sweet! Yesterday they had this dinner and dance.The theme was retro night.And they had posters of Elvis Presley and Marilyn Monroe everywhere.So far from the theme's point.And nobody dressed up for the theme.One guy did,but he looked like a clown.Another did dress up,but in a kimono.So off point.Tsk! Anyways,they had this great emcee who did a handstand and strip dance.Well,it was entertaining!
But,it can get so stressful.Very stressful! But the money yesterday was omgaaaawd.


Remember that aquarium tank "karang-gunied" home? I plan to use for a hamster or a rodent that can fit into my hands! My plan to convert my room to an animal paradise is in progress along with the disapproval of parents.Yeah,thanks Mother for losing my first hamster.



I have so many things I want to do with this blog.I got so many ideas and designs and concepts I want to use.
But God?! Please help me! I can't function with this messed up PC and without a laptop!
Would someone please sponsor me a laptop?
Please?
I would gladly advertise for you!
(:

I leave you with this thought.
Go get a life!
And live it to the fullest no matter what!

Yes,I've been going through a rather bad personal patch as of late.It's pretty bad this time.And it's affecting alot of people.My parents are worried,thanks to some over-exaggerated teacher who called them.My fish are all worried too,I don't spend time looking at them as I used to.Well,I got great friends by my side,forever asking me that irritating question "You ok not??"
I just tend to shut myself off from the rest of the world.It isn't good,but it's that's just the way I am.Plus the combo of stuffing everything deep inside me for years doesn't really help either.
So,people keep asking me what the hell is wrong,well,it's just the accumulated sorrows accumulated over a period of approximately 11 years till now,which can't be accumulated any more cause I can't "tahan" anymore,so yeah,that's my rough patch.
Got it? No more asking okay.
I know the way I handle things isn't really that good on the social line,but it's the only way I know how.I just want to be alone sometimes,just be with myself,and just be away from other humans for awhile.And it's sad that people don't understand sometimes.They actually think that you have changed permanently and that you don't care about them anymore.It can be depressing to watch it all unfold.
And I would greatly appreciate it that whatever I type here will stay here.If you read it,keep it to yourself yeah? Merci.
Thanks ah,Mdm Choo,for calling my mum and causing a riot at home!

Barbecue with the Shin family church yesterday.It was so great to meet up with people again.And meet new ones.And get to know those you know and but never really talked to.Finally had the chance to talk to Fiona after so long.Finally managed to laugh loudly with her again.I miss that.Fiona also now no more single! TskTsk! Auntie Pauline sooo funny! HAHA! Can laugh all day long! Her extension very cute you know.I had a great time there.

Anyways,



Relatives didn't invite this year,so went to my classmate Mythu's place with some of the class.
And boy did I gorge.It's been so long since I tasted home cooked Singaporean indian food.I didn't give a damn about the rest,and I ate to my heart's content.So,now I'm stuffed.
If I were still in India,along with the week whole holiday,I would be bursting fire crackers and bombs and sending rockets into the air with my heart.Mind you,they don't really care about pollution back then and neither did I.Diwali was the time when you breathe in nothing but smoke,and I'm serious! It was that GOOD!.Like India wasn't that polluted enough,we still had to make it worse! But it was fun! And an experience most people in Singapore will never get to enjoy.Come on! All we have here are sparklers!
And gosh,do I miss those sweets back there too! I won't tell you more,I will just let all those pictures do the talking!


These were my all time favourites! This come back to the "things you take for granted" again.For 7 long years I had all the time,eating them like they were Mentos.And now,I am craving for them,craaaving.Those shops at Little India sell them at such extravagant prices,I would rather fly all the way back to India,eat them and come back.Boy,I miss the authenticness of them all.I tried a ladoo here and it sucked,I threw it away and wasted 2 bucks.One day,I will have them again.Just wait.

Okay,I dragged on too far.

So after that went to Bugis to get Dad's birthday present,and it fits! HAHA! Domanchi okaay!
All right,I'm tired.Ate alot,walked alot,and my mental capacity has reached it's limit.
I am going to sleep.It's early,but I'm going to sleep.
Tommorow I shall go to the resevoir early in the morning to just be myself and be with my myself.I need to just calm meself down.

Pics of the day.

I always ask this question.And have been doing so for as long as I can remember.
"Why me?" "WHY?"
That very word can mean so much.And knowing the numerous answers to that very word can also mean so much to a person.
Sometimes,there is a limit to shaking that soda bottle before it explodes.But my soda has exploded,emptied the bottle and the has torpedoed somewhere,never to be found again.
I don't think I will ever be the same again.

Back to reality and doing what I do best,acting like nothing ever happened.

Today was Sharon's wedding.Food was good.
And today was Dad's birthday.
And the usual dilemma of where to eat on special occasions was our usual dilemma.Our usual and no kick eating places,aka Sakae Sushi,Jack's place or Sizzler seriously did not appeal.The food there is okay,but seriously a bit worn off it.Then,the sudden thought of Botak Jones came to mind.
I've always read and heard about the greatness and deliciousness of Botak Jones.So this was the perfect opportunity to try it out.And even better was the comfort that it was nearby home aka in humble Yishun.It was brand new,so even better.
All right,so right in the heartlands in the district of Yishun,with uncles drinking and smoking and aunties gossiping loudly in hokkien,I had one the best Western food in Singapore.Seriously,very good food.I ordered the Chili Dog.And boy,was it good! Half way through and I was already stuffed and panting! And they had this stuffed jalapeneos which were "omg" damn mouth-watering.And for once,mother didn't complain at all about what she ordered,which means,succes!


Happy am I to be so close to Botak Jones.It's so very cheap too! I can take a nice stroll there for a bite or eat there for lunch and go back to school.Just nice,comfortable,friendly staff too! I might want to work there.Haha,seriously good food.

I think that new okto channel is such a bloody waste.So much hype about it,being a new channel,blablabla, when it's just a replacement.I see nothing much but kiddie shows,old anime,and dumb local made shows,I mean,haven't we seen enough of Gurmit Singh? Seriously,it's just a conspiracy.Nothing new,just a new name.I think Okto live is the only thing worth watching,and that's about it.Singapore never changes.TskTsk.

Sad,that laptop is gone and PC is still dead.But grateful to Ebuddy and Dad's laptop.

All it takes,is just a simple song with simple words,like Mighty To Save,to bring you to tears.I feel good sometimes that those tears can flow.I tend however many times to hide whatever I am feeling.Embaressed however,that I teared in school canteen.

Tears,never new.

We sometimes just take things for granted alot.
I have a very very screwed up PC at the moment.Extremely screwed up.A bad reboot which resulted in multiple accounts,no audio,and some bad connection somewhere resulting in no connection to MSN.
Which resulted in me using that old can of a laptop because I honestly,was desperate.
And now,that old can just died on me.It has totally crashed.Old can indeed.
Which resulted in me going back to the PC.But the problems with the PC had to be fixed.So,in my usual impatience I went straight to it,without any basic knowledge.So now,I got a major screwed up,because I have no idea what I've done.So,now,I have completely cut myself away from the cyber world!
I feel like I am so lost without my internet.
Which made me realize how hooked on I am to the net and MSN.Ironic as can be.I feel very very not in peace at all.

I find it very hard to understand why majority of my electronics never tend to function properly,from my phone to my radio to now my laptop and PC which has become the epitome of it all.
This is a perfect opportunity for me to start thinking what,who and which I am taking for granted.
And as I sit here,typing this down on my friend's laptop and drowning in my own sorrow for my lost,I can really see it all now.Wow.

Please pray for me.Another laptop would really really help.It really would!

........and how about a nice LCD TV and PS3??

Will blog properly when my PC is up and running.Whenever that would be..