RockMyCore

I got a new jacket.



And a new pouch.


 And found this cool matchbox.

RED IS IN.

RockMyCore I missed you!
I'm sorry.
It's been long.

Life's been shit.
I have been shit.


But you know me.


I'll be FINE.


I always have been.


Well, needa head to school soon.
 
I'll be back I promise!!


Love ya'll!

So I'm back yo!

YOU KNOW,
SOMETIMES I WISH I HAD A REAL HOLIDAY.
LIKE A REAL REAL ONE.
(THE STAY IN BED TILL 2PM, WATCH TV OR MOVIES OR GO OUT AND COME HOME LATE AND ROT AND LET THE CYCLE REPEAT ITSELF ALL OVER AGAIN)

People always ask me.

"How's your holiday?"

My response all the time?

"WHAT HOLIDAY?!"

I feel like I make my life even more hectic than what it's supposed to be..
But sometimes, there isn't really much of a choice now is there?


It's my last week of holiday.
And it's already taken up.
Scheibe.

It really sucks.
To know that I entirely missed a long holiday and not done anything?
Like work my ass off and earn enough dough.
Or really go out and meet all the people I wanna meet.
Or have so much fun that I would die.

Well, it wasn't exactly all gone to waste.
I did have awesome times too.

Like D Camp!
It was awesome!
All the new friendships made!



And I did meet up with friends I haven't seen in years!
Like these guys!
Not met in two years man!


And I did cut my hair.
So yeah!
Though people don't actually see a change when I cut like 2 inches off!


School is opening next week.
It sucks cause I'm always already in school.
What's the difference?

Oh well, I hope life goes back to normal right once the first few weeks of school starts.
Where I actually do have time for myself!
HAHAHA.

So now, I'm off to school soon.
PRAY FOR ME! 

CIAO!

 
Yes.
It has been long.
I missed you RockMyCore.
Missed you hell of alot.

Life has been one hell of a roller coaster from the last time I was here.

There were so many occasions where I would type something out, delete all out, or just come to this new post page and just stare for hours.

There is just so much to say.
So much to pour.
YET.
So much to hide.

But you know, sometimes, I Just Don't Give A Fuck.


I have really come to a sad sincere point in my life where I don't give a shit about people anymore.
I always let myself be the one taken advantaged of.
Fuck being the nice guy.
I won't falter for this kinda shit anymore.
To all of you ass wipes out there.
(SOME OF YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE)



The only person I am gonna love more, is myself.
Period.

It's true.
Tumblr has been another close friend of mine these few months.
The ease of everything there.
And the wonderful world of visuals.
But I still love RockMyCore more.

Though my Tumblr is extremely active, I won't forget this blog.

Now, to get down to business.

I'm gonna keep this long awaited post short and sweet.

First.
I am now officially over my first year at NYP.
How time flies.
Tons of stuff happen.
Some awesome, some tragic.
BUT WE ALL GROW FROM IT YEAH?

I would say I started of on the wrong page.
As usual.
Just like ITE. I could have done better. But I let the opportunity slip right through me fat fingers.
So I really did try my best this time.
With the promise to my parents that I can still juggle work and dance at the same time.

AND GUESS WHAT I GOT...

Fuck yeah!
I ain't complaining!


At first I was like


and then I was like


and from then till now I'm like



Whoo hell yeah.

I feel great.
Eat your hearts out haters.

Gaijin can do anything he wants to do.
Watch me.

I've been such a good boy you know.
Working and studying his ass off.

So I am gonna shop like a happy kid for awhile.
I already have a long lists on wants.
:D

OH AND ONE MORE THING.

I lost all my contacts.
ALL.
So please, do send me your numbers yeah?

How did I loose my precious Omnia?
That would be for another blog post.






 RockMyCore!

I'M BACK!

The math test is tomorrow.
It's uncanny.
I'm feeling very confident and fucked up scared shit-less all at the same time.
I hate this feeling.

I feel like giving up.
But then again.
Who am I to give up so easily?


I can't wait to get these exams over with.
I just want a thorough check through within myself.
And be with myself and centre clarity.

For now, I got Florence Welch to have my ears listen to.
Peace all world.




Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying "Lord I just don't care"
But you've got the love I need To see me through

Sometimes it seems that the going is just too rough
And things go wrong no matter what I do
Now and then it seems that life is just too much
But you've got the love I need to see me through

When food is gone you are my daily meal
When friends are gone I know my savior's love is real
Your love is real

You got the love

Time after time I think "Oh Lord what's the use?"
Time after time I think it's just no good
Sooner or later in life, the things you love you loose
But you got the love I need to see me through

You got the love


Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying "Lord I just don't care"
But you've got the love I need to see me through

You got the love.

RockMyCore!

I know!
It's been ages!
And I miss you.

I feel so shameful to have neglected you.
But things are just no right now.

I've been to whirled up.
With studies.
With school.
With Quiznos.
With home.

AND WITH ME.

I am lost.
The exams are just around the corner.

And I feel like I've lost myself.
I don't know who I am.
Or what I want.

But, one thing I do know.
Is that this phase will just soon be gone.

I need to holidays asap.
Like seriously, now ASAP.

But till then, I will do what Gaijin does best.

 SURVIVE!

Love ya'll!
:)

At this sinful hour, my stomach craves this.



But no.
I won't fall for such earthly temptations of the flesh.


There has been a new addition to my family.
BESIDES the tons of fish I already have!

Joob Joobs!



Okay why this name!?

Well, there were quite a number of choices you know..
Othniel Junior
Cheescake
Prawn ball.
Ham/Pork.

I settled with Joob Joobs.
Thanks to Lemuel, who introduced me to the name.

APPARENTLY,
Joob Joobs means KISS KISS/MUACKS MUACKS/ XO XO in THAI.
So it's somewhat appropriately cute for my little fur ball.

So yeah.

Everyone, I present to you...



JOOBS!

Anyways, thanks Choy for letting me use your cage!



Joobs got a mansion...and he does is stay in the tunnel.
He seems to love it there.
WASTED.
HAHA.

I AM BACK MY LOVELY BLOG!

All right.
I'm sorry for staying away for so long.

Coming back is so hard.
Laziness, pure laziness
Tiredness too to add.

Sometimes, I don't even turn on my laptop.

IT'S JUST I FEEL SO LAZY TO DO ANYTHING LATELY.

Well, I did promise that this year would be a great year for RockMyCore.

NYP Open House had passed!
Which was the reason why I wasn't blogging for so long.


I came back home and K.O-ed every single day last week.
But it was all worth it.
And my passion for dancing has flamed up abit.

But I don't know why I just don't have that FLAME I had when I first joined.
It's lost somewhere.
Hidden.
Dormant.

But why.
I don't know.
And I'm not going to know.
But I'm going to get it to revive again!

Well besides dance, life has been good in NYP.
My grades have improved.
Well somewhat with comparisons to last Common Tests.
I got a B+ for Math yo.
Like that is damn high for my standards!
HAHA.

And I'm going to just keep aiming higher.

Oh yes about my holiday.
I went back TO Malacca.
This trip was a very pleasant yet very somber and sad one too.
My Christmas dinner was a pipping hot pot of Ba Ku Teh at midnight.
It was just lovely.

This Christmas visit was a very somber one.
Not because I was sick, but because, I got to see my cousin Raymond's and my maternal Grandmother's graves for the very first time.

It's going to be a year to Raymond's death anniversary.
I couldn't get to see him for the last time, I couldn't say goodbye, I couldn't attend the funeral either.
And finally I got to see his resting place.
I miss him.
The closest cousin I ever had.
I miss the times whenever I would go back and we would just sit at a corner and just talk about anything under the sun for hours.
I really do miss him.
:(








But finally I got to see his resting place.
I almost cried.
I finally felt at peace.
I finally was able to say goodbye.


And I also got to see my Grandmother's grave too.
She took care of me till I was a year old.
She always squealed "OOOOH NEEEEEE!"
And I would giggle and squeal in reply.
Yeah, I didn't get the chance to grow up with her.
But she took care of me when I needed it most.
And that was all that counts.

Okay happiness then.
Okay, not really.
Got sick on the way over there.
The bloody flu and sore throat and all.
GOT IT FROM THE MOTHER!
Anyways, with all the shit, I was either on the bed, on a dining table, or in a car.
Or was shopping.
HAHA.
I couldn't be bothered with the bloody fever, throat, and flu and just ate my fill.
Devil, assam pedas, belachan and all.
I just ate to my heart's content, with bloody phlegm and all.

I just needed to restock for the year of one of my favorite comfort foods.
And to end the year with a gastronomic blast!



This trip was just a perfect ending for the year.
It was meant for closure.
And happiness.

AND OH MY BLOODY SHIT.
I JUST FOUND OUT I LEFT MY POUCH FULL OF ALL MY THUMBDRIVES IN SCHOOL.


FUCK.


SERIOUSLY.


I GOT NO MORE MOOD TO DO ANYTHING ALREADY.


AAARGH.

I hope I can find them tomorrow.
I really do hope.


IF NOT...




DIE.


GOOD NIGHT!

What more can I say.
It's already a new year.

I spent it with this precious poodle named Zola, sitting on a jetty, waiting for the sunrise.
(:

So welcome 2011.
And goodbye 2010.



2010 was a unique year.
From the start all the way to the end.
I had the highest UPS I could ever have and the lowest DOWNS I could possibly imagine.

I'm not going to say much.
WHATEVER HAPPENS IN 2010 STAYS IN 2010.



So, let's just reflect on the good stuff yeah.

Graduation from ITE.
It was a highlight in my life.
Never ever have I ever been awarded with awards and stuff for being the top student.
For once. I felt good, academically.
For once, I felt smart.
HAHA.
But I kinda got tired with the tons of awards ceremonies.
It felt awesome at first, but then, HAHA.
Oh well.
I miss ITE.
I miss CM2K.
I always will.

I got into Nanyang Polytechnic!
Yeah.
Though the course I got into isn't really my cup of  tea.
I am on the fence.
WHAT SHOULD I DO?!
I'm just gonna wait and see, and let doors be open.

Well, besides that, if it weren't for NYP, I wouldn't have got into:

1: La Ballroom En Masse!

What can I say. It's been a wonderful journey. The people, the fun, the laughter. Plus the pain, sweat and muscle aches. But I love it all in all.
I wouldn't trade BE for any other CCA in the world.

2: Campus Crusade!

Though I admit, I'm so not regular, I do love Crusade. It's just sad with such time conflicts and my own poor placement of it's priority. Well, it's a New Year isn't it?


YOU KNOW WHAT?
I AM LAZY.
SO I AM JUST GOING TO TYPE EVERYTHING OUT.
MY HIGHLIGHTS OF 2010.

OBS, TayEngSoon, Dance Performances, Quiznos, K2, Tumblr, EBAY, MEOWDOG, Loosing weight, NEW HAIRSTYLE, Stability, Ipod Classic.Fabulous People, and the list goes on and on........

 Though sadly, this year, I wont be having a hamster to nibble on stuff with. 
:(


BUT HEY, I LOVE MY HAIR!
:)


I'm just happy that it's a New Year.
I can't wait to go fucking enjoy it.

What can I say.
Proper blog posts when normalcy starts settling in.

Till then,

PEACE JOY AND LOVE.